One wild week!!

alrighty, well i guess its fair to say this has been the most intense week of my life. The crazy experience started Monday at my 35 week OB appointment, where i was checked for the first time to see if i had dialated. The doctor gave me the all clear that nothing was happening and things were right on schedule. Whoosh. or so i thought.... The next night at around 10 p.m. after calling Lane at 9:30p.m.(yeah, that late! he is one hard working farmboy!) to make sure he was on his way home so i could warm up dinner I started having some cramps in my back. I remember thinking, huh. thats weird. Then the pains started getting more frequent, and FAST! by the time Lane walked in the door 20 minutes later I was laying on the floor trying to cope with contractions that had spread to my abdomon and were 5 minutes apart! I remember saying, uh, lane. i think i need to go to the hospital. i'm hurtin. alot. He didn't even hesitate, just scooped me up and we made the 1/2 mile drive to the hospital, which makes it almost in our backyard. i love it! We got checked in and walked into one of the rooms of the OB department...and i froze. and slightly freaked out. yup, i was scared. It only took them 10 minutes to hook me up to the contraction machine, heartbeat monitor and IV - which btw hurt SOO bad, they burst a blood vessel trying to get it in. Pretty much it hurt more then my contractions...and checked me to see if i was dialated. I was at a 3!!!! Me and lane looked at each other and i remember seeing the stress in his eyes! The nurses scrambled to get medicine in me to stop the contractions - a shot and a pill with some CRAZY side effects, like making my heart pump real hard and sweating. all of which a nursing student gave me....which stressed me out even more...and slowly, SLOWLY like 4 hours later they started to subside to one every hour. That night in the hospital was HORRIBLE, nurses coming in all the time and me still trying to get through frequent contractions. At eight the next morning my doctor came in and laid down the law, no vaccuming, working out, NOTHING that would stress my uterus. and then discharged us, with contractions about 1 hour apart. Lane dropped me off at home and i rented a couple movies and vegged. That night (wednesday) I called lane at the usual time, 9:30, and he showed up 20 minutes later to me EXACTLY the same as last night. on the floor. wimpering slightly. Once again we didn't hesitate and headed to the hospital to go through the same ordeal all over again. except this time i had a nurse who didn't know when to leave the room...she just wanted to sit and chat. and i just wanted sleep! especially after the night before! I think i got 2 hours that night! and just like before i took the medication and waited a few hours for them to subside to one an hour again. By eight the next morning when my doctor came in i was feeling pretty wore out, and lane was DEAD tired - at least i had a couple of hours in a hospital bed! Lane was such a trooper, he pulled up one of the chairs and just napped in it all night. But i was encouraged when i was still only 3 cm. dialated. So we went home and i got the fourth twilight book which i hadn't read yet and spent most of the day lost in the world of vampires and werewolves. That night, just like clockwork, they started again!!! i couldn't believe it, but the funny thing was we were both so tired from the last two nights that before we got into bed, we told each other we'd just have a nap and then go over to the hospital. me and lane woke up the next morning to my contractions to about an hour apart. So...lane went to work and i tried to figure out another way to veg. This time i spent most of the day in front of my sewing machine making a nursing cover and crocheting some little booties, with contractions still an hour apart. Except that day my contractions that day (we're on friday now...) became a lot more strange, i had them about 15 minutes apart from about 3:00p.m. on, and EVERY time i stood up, they DID NOT go away. It was pretty much a constant contraction till i sat down again! The pain was starting to get to me a bit...obviously. at 5:00 i laid down on the bed, had a good cry, then called Lane to tell him i was going to the hospital to have them check me. So i crawled around on the floor trying to avoid the constant contraction, and actually was able to pack a small hospital bag, scoop up my purse, and drive myself to the hospital. The worst thing about that night??? the WALK TO THE OB DEPARTMENT - Oh my goodenss, why do they place it at the back of the hospital??? down the longest hallway in the world???? I had to stop three times because my contractions were getting so intense. At 6:00p.m. i was checked into a room and after i was checked the nurse told me i was dialated to a 6!!! This was another time i had a breakdown, especially since the nurse didn't look at my mental state close enough before she flippantly said, "well honey, looks like you're not leaving here tonight without a baby!!" not exactly what a first time mom wants to hear 4 1/2 weeks early!!! I called Lane and told him it was "go time", although he said he'd be about 30 - 40 minutes. yikes. About that time i started demanding an epidural, and all the pain meds i was allowed. Those contractions were getting INTENSE. I got the epidural in time, (hallejuya - no idea how to spell that) and funny enough i found out my delivery nurse and my anestiesologist are both in my ward. cool eh? So after i'd been numbed, drugged, and stuck with needles, Lane showed up to find me finally calm and collected. Lucky for him eh...I called skye who was on a date with her husband - anyone who knows her would know how extreamly RARE that is, i felt bad for breaking up their date night! But she cut things short and started to come out, but its a two hour drive! that was at 8:00, and by 9:30, after watching some basketball (the Jazz were playing...) and having a chance encounter with Lane's mom, i was starting to feel the pressure of the contractions, even though the striking pain was gone. The nurse came in, who by the way, i LOVED. she was so motherly, exactly what i needed with my own mom MIA. (she was decorating for Breanne's wedding, and didn't take a cell phone. I couldn't even get a hold of her to tell her i was having the baby!!!) and told me it was time to try a few pushes. Once again i had another breakdown, and told her she was crazy. The funny part was, she didn't seem surprised at my reaction at all! she just grabbed a leg, told lane to come over and grab the other one, which he did very obediantly - i remember he looked so serious. and confused. I don't think that was what he thought he'd be doing! and in the next twenty minutes, baby was born!! Locke Magrath Larsen at 10:00p.m. weighing 6.0 pounds, exactly one month before his due date, April 23rd 2010. The best moment of all was when they placed him immediately on my tummy, i was so shocked i almost didn't want to touch him. It just all seemed so sureal. They had to take him to the NICU because of some breathing issues and a low sugar level, which added to the "dream" - i wasn't able to see him until my legs un-numbed, which was about 2 hours later. Unfortunately Skye walked in 10 minutes after it all happened - next time i'll MAKE the doctor wait to break my water! but her and Lane were so cute, running back and forth to the NICU to bring me pictures and videos of him. By the time i was mobile again, we had already decided Lane would sleep at home and me and skye would stay up all night taking pictures of Locke and talking about babies. I almost couldn't believe it when the nurse wheeled him into the room and then....just...left. For the rest of the night. I was SOO SOOO SOOOOO glad Skye was there, she knew how to care for newborns!! i was so clueless, and glad Lane wasn't there, because sometimes i felt a bit embaressed that i didn't know what to do! But we got through that first night, and every night since...which is a miracle itself. Me and Lane couldn't be more proud of our little guy, he's already made it through some tough times! We just couldn't love him anymore - becoming parents to such a tiny yet strong little person is the most rewarding thing the could've ever happened to us. I can't believe that from now on we get to grow from a couple to a small family - its the biggest challenge we've ever undertaken and i'm so excited to see where things go from here!!!

Gettin closer....

WOW. I'm thirty five weeks today. Can ya tell?? yikes. I hope its easy to see that he has DROPPED. I can finally breathe a BIT more normally, although the pressure he's putting on my hips is making it much more diffictult to get comfy at night...I'm almost ready for him too, My friend Tai gave me a bassinett and a stroller! wow that helps the budget!! I did break down last week and got the carseat...holy expensive...
Its really starting to hit me how close I am to becoming a parent! My daydreaming has gotten way worse, as well as my nesting instinct....
I made a this crochet blanket in 3 days...seriously?? RECORD timing. if i wasn't eating my little fingers were working away at this thing. The funniest part is that i felt it was necessary to bring it with me everywhere! including the doctors office, and i actually got a whole red square done while waiting for my appointment!! I got the pattern from here so funny.
This picture...i just couldn't bring myself to delete. It reminded me of something Kennedy would do with it. miss her....aw....

Yesterday i was able to tear Lane away from the cows to go eat dinner with some friends at a place called Falcons Point. its the neatest little place, absalutely in the middle of NOWHERE next to a river where they are an "officially" registered fly fishing spot. The resturant is more like a cabin with rooms to sleep in, but the food was seriously AMAZING!!! BEST steak i've ever had.

Just look at that cake. Some of them actually couldn't finish it because it was so rich. But not me. heck no! I might've nibbled off other's unfinished cake plates...yum...i want some more!!

Oh, and a p.s. on the store situation - i've definately decided that a few weeks before delivery is NO time to be starting a shop up somewhere, but i'll still be doing a craft table with my sister in law Mandy. She's doing a show back home in canada with her candles and i thought i'd add to it! But other then that its just going to be finishing off projects for baby, moving my in-laws into their new house, and begginging renovations on the farm house!! SO SO SO SO EXCITED TO START THAT! i have every room planned out in my head...I can't wait for more living space!!! and a garage! and 2 bathrooms! and doors that i can shut on rooms that aren't clean when neighbors come over!!

New dog!

yup, we are beggining to be "that farm". The one with tons of dogs running around! We've now got two permanent ones, and a couple of strays that like to capitalize on the open bowl of dog food...but I seriously really like this new one, his name's baxter and he knows how to play fetch! The fun part is he never grabs a decently-sized stick, its always HUGE and he can hardly hold it up! me and Lane laugh so hard at him!! In fact after i took a couple of pictures, Lane said, "now that's blog worthy!" Thanks tips.


the most recent project i've been working on is a crochet blanket to match baby's airplane crib bedding. Its cute. should be done in a day or two.

Today is one of those days that i had completely forgotten i have to go through delivery in a month. it so strange to think i won't be pregnant soon, it feels like these kicks, rolls, and big belly are just a part of me now! That is until i pulled out his newborn outfits this morning and I just became so scared and excited that i needed to express it! its funny sometimes how crying seems to help. Just a bit. Then i slumped back in my chair and daydreamed about our future and how this baby is going to influence it. Lane found me in this stupor this morning and jokingly asked me if that was all i had accomplised today. And i did feel productive. Its a skill I have, to do things like daydream and feel productive without actually being productive. I've had a lot to think about lately, somethings which have been a bit scary - my stomach hasn't grown for the past 4 weeks so my doctor has been bit concerned. Its been actually fun because i've been able to get an ultrasound at every appointment!! i cannot get over his little profile. He is so perfect. But he seems to be gaining the right amount of weight and his little bones are actually measuring a bit bigger - meaning they unofficially moved my due date up 10 days!! That news was like music to my ears - i'm trying to get over a nasty sinus infection and avoid being so uncomfortable - i've tried so hard to explain it in other words but uncomfortable always seems to fit the best! I cannot imagine actually being able to function in any way faster then speedwalking. Yesterday while rounding up some cows that had escaped i could not have felt more useless! It was like they somehow knew my disability, and kept charging right by me knowing i could hardly stand there for the 15 minutes, let alone attempt anything more then flailing my arms! The hardest part of all has been that my mom is so far away - I never thought i would miss her so much! Thank goodness for Skype, otherwise i'd be a nervous wreak. Even then, its still not the same as when she's here. A mother's love is so calming, i always feel so comforted when she's around. And when she comes down I become the one who is taken care of - that is a luxury i've definately taken for granted in the past. Last week i had to miss a wedding and homecoming of my two brothers - i've never wanted to be home so bad in my life!! especially with kennedy gone. I have NEVER missed someone so much. But my homesickness has been such a good thing for me and Lane. We could not be any closer - i cling to him like glue! and i know he loves me depending on him like that. Other then the last few weeks though, i have seriously loved being pregnant, i've been amazingly blessed to not have morning sickness! It makes me wonder if i'll miss it at all...ok, now for some pictures. Since being with Lane is pretty much my new job now, i thought i'd snap some fun shots of him working on the battery cable in my car with his dad. They both hated me for the rest of the day, but i know they'll appreciate the pictures later!!




This is my new buisness card for my online shop i FINALLY decided on doing, i guess you could go check it out but there's nothing in there now! hopefully i'll have a couple items in it by the end of the week.

crazy weekend!

So remember the last post that had a picture of us hauling manuere? well that day Lane's brother Dusty was helping in his semi and TIPPED IT OVER coming around a corner, landing a few inches from someones front door!! literally! He was even driving his semi with 2 TRAILERS ON IT!!! how he didn't get more hurt is seriously a miracle. this is what his semi looked like: (this isn't the real thing, just a picture i found on the internet to give you an idea how GARGANTUAN his equipment is)
it was the scariest, craziest thing ever!! He's not hurt, other than some obvious whiplash. THANK GOODNESS. and the owners of the house were supplied enough home-made fertilizer to last them a lifetime! I forgot my camera i was just in a rush to help out and make sure everyone was ok, but i figured i'd tell the story anyhow.

And of course i have to share my latest creation, the snuggly!! The best part about this project?? Skye gave me leftover minky for the inside, the outside jean material i got at a thrift store for 2 bucks, and it was hand-embroidered (with love) by me! So it was a super cheap project, but i LOVE how it turned out! I swear after this i'm actually out of things to make for him...