Resolutions

AHHHHHH!!!!! my life. has been insane over the past year. I keep telling myself when it calms down i'll head to this blog again and keep updating....not going to happen. the only reason i'm on here now is Locke is sick and taking an amazing 2 hour nap so far. what a champ. And no, things are not going to settle down around here, especially since in 4-5 months we are going to have another little boy to look after! i could not be more excited about adding to our family, it just seems like the right time to keep growing and getting into new adventures. But! there is a LOT to be done before the baby comes. which is kind of why i'm on here....definately procrastinating. Now that i know its a boy i'm super excited to begin putting his nursery together - that is after i get all my craft stuff out of that room. and it is PACKED. to the ceiling. But there is no where for it go! I want it to go downstairs...but its not finished. So me and Lane decided last night we are going to finish all renovations before this ones arrival!!! ugh, its such a big undertaking, since we are kinda both renod-out. we're pooped. big time. the upstairs looks amazing, but i know we are just going to have to force ourselves to keep going, because there is NO WAY i'm going to feel like doing anything with a new baby here. Its so hard to try and get all these projects done and still feel like i'm giving as much time as i can to locke - we only have 4 months together before i have to look after another baby and i want to make it as special for him as i can. So much is going to be changing AH! i'm even starting to cry thinking about how fun the past year and a half has been with locke - everything is so true that you hear, it goes SO FAST. I can't believe my little baby is now a toddler and we are bringing in a new baby - i just want SO BAD not to think that the baby is somehow replaceing locke. i still want him to feel I treat him the same, with plenty of attention and love. and yet i'll have another newborn! the idea of all that responsibility and care hits me sometimes - it will be a delicate balance between locke and the new baby. and i'm excited to figure it out! i'm excited for two boys, and i LOVE how quietly excited lane is about it all - he has his two boys, to help on the farm, to teach them hard work, to teach them everything he knows. But he would never admit it - thats just lanes way. He is my calm, subduded, amazing father and husband. My boys couldn't have a better parent then him! He is the best! LOVE you so so so much lane! i seriously can never say it enough. i just love him. alot. oh and my resolution is to update this once a week. wish me luck!

This is locke. everyday. at lunch. Whatever he eats, he gets it absalutely everywhere. including in his diaper. he is a true boy!





Locke and dad. Absalutely best buds. I love to see his little hands reaching up in the air - its something Lane never says no to! i love it.